Anna Marie Ratcliffe

She claimed I was never there for her when she needed me. 

I was ALWAYS there for her. 

She led me on for 2.5 years. 

She lied about wanting to date me.

She wouldn’t go to HR with me. 

She lied about her phone issues. 

She used me to get her husband mad. 

She would only come around after drinking alcohol. 

She was always out and hitting on guys when she was supposedly wanting me. 

She’s a cheater. 

Once a cheater always a cheater.

She’s a master manipulator. 

I’ll never understand why she chose me to treat like shit. 
One day I’ll tell people the truth about her. But not until we are no longer coworkers. 
I resent and hate her. 
Annastacia Cowley Ratcliffe 

still a loser

Its been so long since I wrote.  I just went to my doctor and got put on anti depressants.  I feel hopeless.  I don't know how to fix it, change it or feel the slightest bit of relief.

What am I doing.  Where do I go from here and how.  I only have my two youngest in my life. 

I'm worthless to everyone else.  I'm not the person they would rather be with.  They all fuck with me and take me on an emotional rollercoaster.  I hate it all.

I want to move away and be alone.  I hurt alot in my heart.  My church has abandoned me.  Anna threw me to the garbage.  My chief threatened my job. 

I'm trying to just keep moving forward.  One day at a time.  I hope I will escape this fog that surrounds me.